and I'll say "wary"

because

it's one of those things -

not to know.

You know -

in the past, the ways

the days

the frayed messages I've been wired -

in the past,

the times I've been the most

so

so very open,

then

slam

sudden shut - down - left - down

on my own.

I mean, there's a reason I won't eat famous amos cookies anymore;

but that's another story.